Memories

Don't look so sad
I know it's over
But life goes on
And this old world
Will Keep on turning...

Let's just be glad
We had this time
To spend together
There is no need to watch the bridges
That we're burning

I'll try to get along
You've found another
But I'll be still here
If you should ever find
You need me

Don't say a word
About tomorrow
Or forever and ever and ever and ever
There'll be time enough for sadness
When you leave me

Lay your head upon my pillow
Hold your warm and tender body
Close to mine
Hear the whisper of the raindrops
Blow softly against my window
Make believe you love me
One more time
For the good times

Who gives a F***

I sometimes wonder why i bother what people has to say ,
Why i get disturbed when they point out things that i`m not
or chase me away as if i`m a stray ...
Why do i lose patience when they fail to understand me,
Or made guilty of crimes i`ve not commited,
Why do i have to look the other way when i`m called names,
Or put down just for kick sakes...

Ya i`m not a stud , a perfect 10 ,
i`m crazy , i`m goofy, i `m childish yet mature,
i`m a thinker not a shrinker,
i`m creative.... i`m black i`m white ... i`m bold and i fight for what is right...

To make it short and sweet i`ll give a shit .
For i give a Fuck , u sore loser`s cause u`ll suck...

Auld Lang Syne (Bring in Peace,Love & Happiness)

Auld Lang Syne , Auld Lang Syne

For times gone by,

my dear For times gone by,

We will take a cup of kindness yet ,

For times gone by.

The baritone voice still booming in my mind when i remember uncle pinto singing the song in full throttle.... and the goan songs that followed with me on the Bongo and you on guitar and aunties & uncles as accompaniment sir you rocked the parties....

Farewell my old pal , farewell to my teacher & preacher your voice always reminded me of Chris Perry ..... may your soul R.I.P

A Note to all those who were hurt by my Highhanded & Uncouth behaviour ...

For the past year that gone by I would like to APOLOGIZE ,

for all the mistakes i had made that made people doubt my intention ,

for all agressive behaviour i showed ,

for being outright insulting and crude ,

for all the attitude i had developed & being egoistic,

for harrasing freinds and for being a total JERK .... giving shan`t respect for someone`s feeling

and losing Trust...

I`m ashamed for my behaviour i apologise for from the bottom of my heart, i really mean it ,i was just a fucking weakling.

i`m working on pulling down the wall of distrust i had created over the period of time ... my past had fucked me and i`m being to realise in turn i`m fucking those who do care about me...

Yes i`m pulling down the wall of distrust , help me Lord to trust people , please take the hatred i have in me , replace it with love , help me Lord to be nice to people and be more understanding but last but not least help me Lord to give joy to the people

Ps:

For all the regret i have been felling of lately yet i just can`t get this song from my mind ....

My Bonnie lies over the ocean

My Bonnie lies over the sea

My Bonnie lies over the ocean

Oh bring back my Bonnie to me

Bring back, bring back

Bring back my Bonnie to me, to me

Bring back, bring back Bring back my Bonnie to me

to me ....

Two Lonely Hearts

Two lonely hearts torn apart,

Too stubborn to create a new start

Two lonely hearts far away from each other ,

Pain grabbing them in every which way from one another

Two lonely hearts, a quarter not a whole,

For the distance from the two souls is taking their toll.

Two lonely hearts one is yours the others mine

Two lonely hearts who promised to love each other until the end of time....

Love Instatiable........

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around.

You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more.

You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you.

When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement.

They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself.

Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful.

There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around.

You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are.

The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever.

Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again.

Colours seem brighter and more brilliant.

Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all.

A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face.

In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby.

Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you.

You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do.

Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon.

You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible.

You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you.

You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end.

Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile.

Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life."

Finding Oneself........

Warriors of light always keep a certain gleem in thier eyes

They are of this world, they are part of the lives of other people and they set out on thier journey with no saddlebags and no sandals

They are often cowardly .

They do not always make the right decisions.

They suffer over the most trivial things, they have mean thoughts and sometimes belive they are incapable of growing.

They frequently deem themselves unworthy of any blessing or miracle.

They are not always quiet sure what they are doing here.

They spend many sleepless nights , believing that thier lives has no meaning .

That is why they are warriors of light.

Because they make mistakes .

Because they ask themselves questions.

Because they are looking for a reason - and are sure to find it.

Excerpts

Hey You! up there in the dark can u hear me...

Scattered Thoughts ..... Ensemble

"Soulmates" - I belive are for many of us all we see them at various times of our lives as mirrors of ourselves but timing is wrong and thier thread that is connected to us is not strong at that moment in time.

When worlds/threads do collide it comes with a "knowing" (beyond anything that i can describe) and a desire of two like minded individuals with a common desire to love each other . You are left wondering why us and not person I felt was attracted to.

A soulmate is not found as a "penny by the wayside" or like a magician pulling a rabbit out of the hat , but arrives with an intuitive knowing and a sense of completeness that is unfathomable.

So precious and fragile at first , tentative , awaiting the blossoming that will follow .

You think you are incharge of the emotions but you are swept away with a feeling that was meant to be and has come down from Ages , A Feeling beyond any of our Comprehension.

Love is a risk and is not all happiness and sunshine , it is hard work and a lot of giving and taking .God created love as an emotion to be treated with respect and lovingly tender to bear the fruit that was intended.

Libérer de la Servitude

Scars are like memories and Tattoo`s .

When you fall , When your heartbreaks and When your Best freind turns his/her back against you, it leaves a scar that can hurt everytime you think about it.

It`s a memory that is stuck in your head.

It`s in the past ,but it comes back and bites.

It`s a tattoo because it`s a memory that hurts , but does`nt go ...

When you see it`s so vividly , you sometimes regret what led to the scar that is a memory that leaves an imprint in your Life`s History......

End Note :

Every time that you hurt me, everytime i felt pain ,every lie that you told me made me who i`m today .

Never have regrets because at one point everything i did in life was exactly what you wanted...

Getting Nostalgic

I JUST CAN`T GET THIS SONG OF MY MIND

If i said you has a beautiful body would you hold it against me?

If i swore you were an angel would you treat me like the devil tonight ?

If i were dying of thirst would your flowing love come quench me ?

If i said if you had a beautiful body would you hold it against me ?

Now we can talk all night about the weather

Tell you `bout my freinds out on the coast

I could ask a lot of crazy questions

Or i could ask what i really want to know

Now rain can fall so soft against the window

The sun can shine so bright up in the sky

But daddy always told me "Dont make small talk"

He said " Come on out and say what`s on your mind"

If i said you had a beautiful body would you hold it against me ?

If i swore you were an angel would you treat me like a devil tonight?

If i were dying of thirst would your flowing love come quench me ?

If i said you had a beautiful body would you hold it against me .....

- Bellamy Brothers

Down the Memory Lane

Met Ol` freinds & Khyani Bakery @ Dhobitalao, Malhar time is in so need to arrange passes so we can get in the college fest, last time i entered as a journo he he he , god still did`nt give up tryin to get passes @ Malhar and the meet started niceties with usual gallis and passes in place, the conversation moved on to our old days and lo we went down the Down the memory lane .... Good old days those were .

Time when Fair and Fete during some church feast was an in thing and attending every rock show may it be I-ROCK or any college rock festival was necessary and getting invited by local freinds were more happening as we would get free food as guest , literally attending any fete all through bombay may it be at Bosco`s at Matunga or feast @ IC borivalli or at John the Baptist @ thane was a way of life for us , we the bunch of motley crew of Music and Dance freak were always there in full force giving our attendanc may it be rain or hot summer evening.

Where live band played till early morn for there used to be 3 to 4 bands playing back to back , dishing songs from Dire Striats to Eric clapton, madonna to prince from pussycat to engelbert from country music to dance number...and ending up with Goan Masala , with live band playing things were really happening , NO GOING TO DISC man our own open shows .... Aaahhhhhhh. dance floors were open to anyone who wanted to shake thier leg or 2 or 3 or 4........

See most of these fete were free initially and the additional tit bits that is did`nt pinch our pocket as the beer, whisky , rum and vodka were also pretty cheap , mixing with the thumps up or any soft drink available , as officially taking booze in the fair were prohibited and the parish priest was always on a lookout for culprit ... :-) , but over the period of time we learnt the art of smuggling lot of stuff to these show`s that were part of our upbringing.

Nostalgic that we were ,i got into the mood as usual this time without any alcohol in the system and started whisling the GOOD OL` number that i still can't off my mind as i`m writing this blog ....

We literally ended up singing the song and the uncle the counter hushing us all the time....

well i wont end the story hear cause the after math late night session turned out to be even more happening when we landed our self at Mondy`s (Cafe Mondegar) and carried our singing session at full gusto with foreinger`s joinin in too.... well this how we were and this is how we are , of lately we seldom meet , but when we do , we believe in brining the roof down , we rock guyz........

mon sauveur

Paint a smile on my face

Try to hide the pain

The smile never meets my eyes

My heart is full of shame

Paint a smile on my face

Try to forget the lies

The smile never meets my eyes

My heart is filled with pain

Paint a smile on my face

Try to forget that i`m alone

The smile never meets my eyes

My heart begins to break

Paint a smile on my face

as I try to find a freind

look me down as flirt

My heart despair , for the remarks hurts

I feel a tender touch upon

The smile i painted on

She wipes the smile off my face

Tells my heart to not be fake

She replaces the paint with a smile so true

I know i can`t be alone for sure

She takes the pain out of heart

And fills me up again

Tourmente`

Tears streaming down her cheek ,

As she sat lonely down by the creek ,

Heart broken , Words unspoken....

Fate took away the joy that one can`t fathom...

Madness she held onto, Feared she remained .

Chances she took to reach to the sky , but to no avail.

For surreptiously life pushed you down

As you see no reason to be around.

Happiness bountiful,

for a guardian angel has been put thru.

Take my hand for I will to guide u around.

From the madness that drive`s u to the ground..

Hold me , trust me ,

loneliness we will crush you`ll see

let`s together pave way thru the desert of pain .

Being alone there`s nothing you will gain .

- Endnote:

I wish you could look at me and see the person you once loved instead of the person you have grown to hate...

--Anonymous

l'amour et la solitude

Childhood - Innocense

Freedom - Wild

Freinds - Happiness

Youth - explore

Respect - Command

Maturity - Responsibility

Love - Enigma

Lover - Support

Tear - Sad

Hate - Remorseful

Jealousy - Failure

Fatique - hopelessness

Loneliness- Fear

Twilight - Hope

Hope - Success...

Love - Blissful..

When you try your best and you dont succeed

When you get what you want but not what you need.

When you feel so tired but you can`t sleep

Stuck in reverse

When tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can`t replace

When you love someone but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

High above or down below

When you`re too in love to let it go

If you never try you`ll never know

Just what you`re worth

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And i will try to FIX YOU

What is Emotional Intelligence Quotient (EQ)

The Rule for work are changing . We are being judged by not just how smart we are but also by how we handle each other and ourselves.

Our each and every action is systematically controlled emotion ; this is the essential premise of EQ.

To be sucessfull required effective ,control and management of one`s own emotions and those of the other people EQ embraces two aspects of intillegence.

1. Understanding yourself,your goals , responses , behaviour , create possibilities and intentions.

2. Understanding others and thier feelings .

Emotional intelligence Quotient (EQ) is increasingly relevant to organizational development and developing people , because EQ principles provide a new way to understand and assess people`s behaviour, management skills , attitudes , interpersonal skills and potential .Emotional Intelligence Quotients is an important consideration in all aspects of an organization; human resource planning , job profiling , recruitment interviewing and selection, management development ,customer relationships and customer services , etc .

The good news is , unlike IO , EQ skills can be developed and improved over time.

HOW TO GET PEOPLE TO LIKE YOU - THE RULE OF LIKEABILITY

There are no rules when it comes to popularity . However , these 12 rules of likeability are very true. Just stop and think for a moment about how true these are in your own life and you will understand thier universal appeal .

1. We like people who like us

2. We like people who are like us

3. We like people who can teach us without preaching at us.

4.We like people who lift our spirit

5.We like people who pay attention to us.

6.We like people who are approachable.

7.We like people who are genius

8.We like people who associate with positive feelings

9.We like people who are courteous.

10.We like people who are familiar with.

11.We like people who dont take themselves too seriously.

12.We like people who are beautiful inside.

Rain....

Here comes the rain ,
Wash away my pain.....
The shame i feign to reign ,
Misdemeanour ,
worthless struggle ...
Past to last .....
when it last , may it be my last breath...
Give me freedom, take away my pain ,
i cry unto thee for i just cant bear the burden ,
it`s tearing me down ....
i can`t sleep , i can`t think straight....
the hate i nuture,
the past i lost , i see no future...
trun the tables , wake me from this cradle...
the death upon me ....
for that`s the freedom i seek....

Woman.........

Tis so amazing how this world was made
we fail to appreciate the woman we meet...
For the contribution they make in our life....
For the love they share being a wife...

For a friend we look upto thee ,
For the all the time they hold your hand & smile with glee...
Never to let you alone.
In darkest hour they stand like a pillar of stone...

For the your darkest secret , they can keep ...
Without uttering a word or weep...

For thier kindess and gentile nature ,
for thier everloving tenderness and fierce stature..
For the sweet words , For thier gentle touch...
For they stand strong , when you are down and gone...

Oh! woman Mother , Sister ,Freind and Wife...
You are God`s creation , your beauty undefiled
dont let the mans uncouth nature ....
For thier disgraceful behaviour ,
Make you feel lonely and unwanted

- Dedicated to all the woman .........

Farting in Glory

Oh your`s truly has joined and orgn to do good for mankind , animalkind and inbetweenkind ......

Our motto go GO GREEN ( in envy ), shit man the other organization has better looking chicks than our`s .... aaaahhhhh and who the fuck called them our rival .......

Well this happened on one friday evening in the month of May , Stupid , stupid me i should`ve known when my friend here i`ll call him Mr. Emotional offered me free drinks shocked as i was happy 2 , i accepted the offer , after lot of coercion and sweet talks , bas sirf freindship ke liye join kar na , i joined this orgn that dealt with environmental issue is what he said to me gave me a good 2 hours of talks which i just didn`t get what he ws trying to say , see this session took place on over a bottle of Vodka , 6 peg down and i just stared @ him blankly and his nonsense , had to na he was paying the bill .... and after 7th peg i signed the Regn Form, fuck after so much of alchol in i would have signed my death warrant for all i know....... hic`s hics , chicken 69 mangate hai yaar ... chakna khatam hua...

Lo` the all and mighty` name appeared on thier circular that was the end of the month , Mr.Movin D`costa, souvenir committe member , eh what`s tht , my freind explained to me very nicely it`s like since u cant make it to all the meeting and stuff i , the stress on " I" was quiet deep suggested for you to be auxillary member and be in a sovenir committe uor job will be to get sponsor`s ...... arree waah ........ thank u saar.....

I was called for here i`m stressing "I" cause it`s something i learned from my freind u see , by high and mighty thier Vice President who also happens to be corporator from our ward , said he wanted to meet me ( self importance :-) ) ..... okay high and mighty i`ll be there , there goes my sunday (shit ooo) .....

I went in my regulars ( shorts and tees and shoes) to match and here thy were in kurta and pyjamas , odd ball tht i`m gave a sheepish look to my freind he just smiled back after formal introduction....

we set on to meet the other orgn that were planning to have some event or the other for the year so that we can plan our event`s accordingly.....

I was aghast 2 see so many youth from in and around been part of different orgn i had no idea about met a few freind asked the same fearful yet stupid question ( shaadi hua kya) , abe chutiya i`ve come here to good for mankind all u`ll are after my shaadi..... (mood off) , bundle of mood`s back got introduce good looking guju babes from other orgn , and one even offered me SNAKES (snacks) for rest of the english speaking crowd i accepted the SNAKES thankfully ( consisted of khaman dholka, undia, sev chuddha and samosa and chutney to dip it all )and to slush it down Aaam Ras.... ( Oh God) ..... and went on the occupy a seat near our gang who looked thy have come to some political rally as the member`s of other group were as casual as i was , the teen`s in tees and short.... but amoungst my group i was the odd man out ..... Lo Bolo ...

After the hogging session was over the meeting started with a Big Bang ( poing , poing , phus and PhRRRRRRRRRRRRR) , i mean literally our all and mighty(read our Vice President u nincompoop) blew his horn, it was a royal rumble of Fart`s for sometimes... and lot of laugh afterwards.... Ass sticking near live MIC what can u expect and bloody embarrasement for group members .....excuse moi` , bit of regret ful sorries, the poor thing was in misery as he had too many dhoklas and samosas they were just not willing to stay put so had to blow out right.... phataka mat jaloooo , hamane leke aaya hai ........ ( GOD save our environment from this GAS chamber, burn him instead of trees, Save our environment)

Well the meeting finally ended in a good note , with wee getting to orgnize an event in June a cricketting match and awareness program along with it.. and football tornament in november with similar program 2......

All wrapped going home niceties exchanged sunday gone , my freind gone , had too see he had night shift @ work, our all and mighty was pretty happy with the meeting and ordered a round of vada pav for all his member`s.... 1 round became 2 then 3 , and finally we called it off as our high and mighty closed the session with another mighty blow of horn..... And off we headed home.

Trip to babylon

I summarize that windfall comes at an unexpected times :-) , monetary or otherwise.... u need patience too.

Finally picked up the sound system i was so looking out to buy, dreams can be acheived really, and here i `m , i bought the audiophile system that i always used to check out , well the rates were too much pinched my pocket as well as by butt....

Butt never gives up the 10 years itch ..... never goes so easily u see .... scratch scratch aaaahhhh... feel`s good
Scrapped my Sony system finally , R.I.P my you play uor tune to someone else`s ears....

The trip to buying the audio system was mar with lot of if`s
i want to buy this before i could pick that ....

But after much ado and savings every bit it was worth every penny......
Sold my old set to a freind of mine and little savings , thought of buying a bike 2nd tht is , struck a deal ...... oops by mistake logged on to the site selling the audiophile and just could`nt resist the temptation.

Chucked the bike , and took a trip to babylon ( matunga where my sound engineer was putting the system in place for me) ....
Me and my freind went to this place in the sunny afternoon , had a session with Mr. Bajaj the guy who own the place and an engineer par excllence who gave a subtle point on technicalities of the system and to how to listen and enjoi music at the best, without bursting EARDRUMS ... after lot of Q&A session we both ( me & my freind) agreed on one piece tht was demanding our attention the most MOSFET REF 2000 + Millenium Speakers......

Ole` agreed on the set and went to celebrate even before pickin up the set , had a beer or 2 or 3 or 4 or 5 lost the count actually , told our man Mr.Bajaj will be back in 1/2 hour and turned up well after 4 hours..... u see it was the banks fault and not beers....

after filling our tummy and heart , i realized i struck a deal without having any money on .... called on Mr.Bajaj who insisted on paying in cash ... and lo the trip started .

Went to ATM no.1( Place - Matunga) , no cash in the system huh , wtf why have thy even placed this goddamn things in place,
ATM no.2 (Place Dadar ) and ATM no. 3 (Place Dadar) were out of order (had to walk all the way from Matunga to Dadar to Mahim) in the heat that was burning the skin .... but made it with beer belly and bit of drowsy feeling ....
Went to ATM no.4 (Place -Mahim ) fuck ate my card...... all hell broke lose ... goddamn it ,the security bailed me out he was able to retrive it ..... i`m not going to swipe again
well we dont have any other option i knw if i walk away from the deal ,i`ll end up picking bike ( read beast ) instead of the beauty .....
Of fish lets try again ATM no.5(Place - Mahim) no cash again..... shitoooo
ATM no.6 (Place Mahim) of gush came the money finally , rushed to the place and picked up my system par excellence..... Dire Straits 3rd performance at my place at my own pad, called in friends , brought in booze and celebrated ......

Long live music ......

Pisces - The Fishes- TOP 10 REASONS YOUR A PISCES

The fish is a guardian of the abstract mind
The most compassionate person of any sign
Tis said we are the bearers of an intuitive Muse
The energies of power more than a mere fuse
The Pisces is the signature of the twelfth and final sign
The force of mystical powers and passions more refined
Sometimes we hide our energetic trine
When close to a body similar to thine
Composed of complexities larger than most
Compassion compounded for any host
Friend to the Universe and lacky to none
Lovers of peace and celestial fun
Dreamer and bon vivant, poets and actors
Musicians and politicians...how does that factor?
Guess all-in-all ....its best being around
The Pisces who flies forever off ground.

Who needs to walk on fire,
When you can walk on water.

~Tony Robbins

PISCES in detail

He is very emotional and always allow himself to be very emotional. He can have a good night sleep and be in a good mood, and less than few hours at work he can be very moody. He does not understand things or try to understand things easily. If you notice him carefully, you will notice what kind of moods he is in.

He is a thinker and able to do well at work and always succeed. His normal gestures mean he always look at other people faults, but he will not talk about it. He has the ability to know your thought and able to tell you what you are thinking about.

He can mostly memorize all his anger, his loves. They are his important secrets and he will keep them to himself and will never let you know. He is not a very ambition man and careless about his position in society. Wealth does not drawn his attention, because he is not greedy man and as well he thinks money is not something that will last. He could be very careless about his future. He does not like to fight against all odds, but instead following the stream and make life easier. Sometimes because he likes to take an easy path, which cause him very unsteady future.

He is kind and slightly lazy, but it is his cute character. He hates rules and regulations. He will never look down on people. He is a polite guy and can be very aggressive when he is mad. He loves to think that he lives in a beautiful world and surround by nice people, so if he finds his world is cruel and not what he expects, he will live in his world instead.

His other charm is that he is a funny guy, and it is his real weapon. He can tease you and yet make it looks like one of his joke. Even when he is sad, he still has that funny face, so you could hardly tell if he is mad or depress. He likes to hide his feeling and help other people especially those who need friend or lonely.

He will be everything that you want and everything you do not want. He has a chance to make it as much as a chance to fail. He can determine to make it work and can do it well, except he tends to lost his energy with other important things, that's how he miss many of his good opportunity.

He can be happy and content by himself. What he think is important is not "Love" ,but firm status and stability. He has plenty of love for you.

He is a good speaker, as much as he is a good listener. When he is with you, he wants to be happy. He understand his partner's emotional. He likes to take a long rest and sometimes being alone. If he needs to be alone, try not to disturb him.

He is a sensitive, quiet , shy and easily hurt. He wants to feel worthy. He can be mad and noisy, but once he calm down, he will be that happy person again. He is not a jealous or possessive guy, and if he feels jealous he will hide it. He has many friends of both sex, and he care about his friends. He likes to have lots of friends, so you can not get jealous or else you will loose him. He likes beautiful things, so if a pretty woman walk by he will look ,so do not get mad at him knowing this fact.

When he is lonely or feeling sad, be close to comfort him. He does not like to take advice,so if you want him to listen or to follow your advice, you have to act as a good sample for him first. He likes a cheery and a smart woman. If you treat him like he is your special person, then he will be that special person for you. He will trust you if he is in love, but try not to over doing it and spoil him too much. You have to know yourself worth all the time too.